to the peace of not knowing the traffic ahead.
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Before I was about to head home from Easter festivities at my parents' place, my mom gave me the news that my uncle was in the hospital with potentially pneumonia in his one remaining lung. I called and got a hold of him at the hospital as I was getting on the highway and talked for a little bit and said that I would come see him the next day. When I hung up, I found myself stuck in slow Easter traffic back into the cities, and behind this semi-truck. Obvious emotions, fears, concerns and thoughts filled my mind, and as much wanted to just go around it and everyone else in front of me to get home as soon as I could, I felt a stronger desire to just blindly glue the nose of my car to the back of this truck and “ride” it home. Whether it stopped, sped up, crawled, or sprinted, I knew that it was going forward, going where I was going, leading me, pulling me, allowing me to free my mind of steering, thinking, worrying about if I was in the fast lane, frustration that I wasn’t....it brought a sense of peace that as long as I didn’t see/know the traffic ahead, I had not to worry, I had not a thing to do to make this trip faster, to make it go as I wanted it to go. I just had to follow. (and with my recent car history, not crash into the back of it....while taking countless “blind” pictures with a huge SLR camera in my right hand and the steering wheel in my left....i wasn’t texting though...)